Here are pictures of me and Jenn! And one with her mom, Linda, too! We 'hung out' at the doctor's office (I was there almost 4 hours), so we did get some chat time in.
Meeting Jenn was a really special experience, as it is so rare to have the opportunity to meet the folks I have become friends with online.
Jenn and I chatted in the waiting room and she also sat in on my appointment so that we would be able to discuss and process my decision afterwards. She gave so much time and energy to be there with me. In the end, although I chose not to follow Dr. Y's treatment plan, having Jenn there for the appointment helped us to better process the decision together. She was able to see firsthand why I made my decision.
Here's the lowdown on the alternative doctor.
First, I never thought to ask if the office was handicapped accessible. I just assumed it was. As it turns out, I had to climb 17 very steep steps to get to the office (which was upstairs and not air-conditioned! Hot, hot, hot!). Now, I have not climbed more than a couple of stairs at a time in at least 3 years. As it turns out climbing these steps was another testament to the fact that things are getting better for me physically (although, I can't say I want to climb steps again anytime soon!)
The appointment itself is difficult to describe. Dr. Y uses a form of testing and treatment that is completely different from any traditional medical model. I did not 'click' with Dr. Y at all, and found the appointment disappointing. We came home with his protocol and the 'remedies' he uses, but in my gut I was feeling very uneasy about the whole thing.
The following day, when I had such a great appointment with Dr. Lyme, I felt that I had my answer. As Jenn later said, I did get a black and white answer--God showed me that I needed and wanted to stay the course of allopathic medicine.
At this point, traditional medicine is not failing me. It is finally actually working for me. And I feel so great about Dr. Lyme and Dr. ANS that I don't want to give that up.
I am always, always open to finding ways to include both allopathic and alternative medicine into my treatment (and do use both), but I was not ready or willing to follow Dr. Y's path, which would require leaving behind the allopathic treatments that are working for me.
If I had seen Dr. Y on my own, without Jenn there and without having known her positive experience with him, my answer would have been immediately clear: This was not my path.
However, knowing her success with him and her positive experience I was left with my head absolutely spinning, which took several days for me to resolve emotionally. I could not reconcile the Dr. Y that I saw with the Dr. Y that she sees. He was very 'off' at my appointment, not answering questions, etc.
I was most afraid of telling Jenn that seeing Dr. Y was not my path. When I called her though, she immediately said that God had given me a clear answer that day. Dr. Y was 'off' (and she was actually very frustrated and disappointed with him). Dr. Lyme was 'on' and 'up' and positive.
The path I am on is working and I want to stay the course. That was the ultimate decision. And the blessing in this all, was that Jenn supported my path 100%. She said she knew the moment I walked out of Dr. Y's office that I would not choose that path.
I continue to search for ways to blend allopathic and alternative medicine. But, Dr. Y wasn't my path.
I am grateful for Jenn's understanding and support of our different paths towards healing. And it felt so wonderful to give each other a zillion hugs!
Blessings,
Emily
Photos: Me with Jenn. Me with Jenn and her mom, Linda.
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